Friday, July 25, 2014

Just a Dream





When chariots race towards western skies
And disappear o'er the horizon's guise
I dreamed a dream of menace and fear
Resounding from depths of conscious unclear


Lone and dark a rider approaches
Carrying torch and flame
Shadow and death with him encroaches
But as yet I know not his aim


With arm raised high the night retreats
Stars outweighed by sparks and heat
Alighting all points between earth and cloud
Save an unseen face beneath the shroud


Through fields and pastures the stranger rides
Lowering his torch to the ground
Then touching every stalk of wheat beside
He unleashes a terrible sound


Fields fill the night with ash and flame
When in horror I hear the child cry out my name
"Father!" he screams as flames draw near
Yet in horror I remain paralyzed by fear


Misery abounds in the orange glow that reveals a dreadful truth
For to my son his mother runs, nearly out of breath
My noble wife, her beauty eternal, as captured in her youth
Trades outward splendor for inner grace and bravely stares down death


Fire consumes my wife and son while in terror I look on
Til the rider sifts through smoldering ashes with hands that are but bone
Death has claimed those I love most by unleashing its murderous plot
And left me here to weep alone...alone, my eternal lot


Through open blinds the sun casts its rays
Awakening me from my spell
Nightmarish dreams tarnish happier days
B A glimpse of both heaven and hell
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If I am too avoid criticism for writing dreadful poetry, it is only with pleas for leniency towards a novice's first attempt. This is the very first poem that I have ever written and I do so in response to a recurring dream that has haunted my sleep, a nightmare really, wherein all that I hold dear is taken from me in a moment of senseless horror. My dream resembles that of a scene in the movie Gladiator where Maximus returns home to find that his house has been looted, his fields burned, and (worse still) his wife and child murdered. In my dream, I am just a normal man of antiquity, with a modest home built atop a patch of good earth that stretches far into the horizon. On my land there are fields of wheat and barley, orchards of apples and dates, and a small river that runs east to west and disappears into the horizon where the setting sun turns its rippling waters into streams of gold.


One day, as I sit on the porch on some cool summer's eve, my beautiful wife beside me as we watch our son play in the fields that my own hands have worked, I see a great fire on the horizon. It consumes all before it and approaches quickly, so quickly that my son is soon overcome as his tiny legs cannot outrace the flames. My wife springs from her chair and races to save him, yet she too is engulfed by the flames and soon perishes. The fire surrounds my home, burning and destroying everything that I have ever worked to create until at last all is gone. The fire dies out, having consumed every patch of earth except the one I stand on, leaving me untouched by its blaze, yet surrounded by an ashen world that I no longer recognize. In those ashes is everything that once mattered to me, everything that still matters to me, but it is gone and I stand there alone...all alone. Still alive, yet somehow already dead.


This is the dream I have been having. I do not know why.

Wednesday, July 9, 2014

Fireworks







Only crashing waves break the silence at this late hour, lapping against the shoreline like the distant voices of some ancient siren song. The cool waters wash over my feet and reclaim the trail of footprints that countless steps have carved through porcelain sand. What remnants of my path remain lead back to a raucous beach house where friends both old and new send breaths of rum-filled laughter high into the midnight void as the light of their souls mixes with that of innumerable stars and a crescent moon above. I stray from the familiar voices, further along the beach until at last I can hear their cheers no more and am left with only the boundless sea as my twilight companion. She is beautiful at this hour, her face awash in crimson and gold. The gentle breezes that dance across her shoreline playfully tease my golden locks like some adoring lover and make me long for the days when nightly I can relent to her temptations, for as now our trysts are but a fleeting indulgence. I long to stay here with her. I long to walk her shoreline as my cares and worries melt away like so many strangers' footprints left behind. She beckons me to remain forever in her arms, yet is gentle in her request, so very gentle and quieter still, her soft voice whispering into my ear in a million tiny droplets of seawater that crash onto the shore.


But the stillness is broken by a sudden explosion that drowns out her voice and paints the sky with colors even brighter and more spectacular than those of nature's palate. Reds and whites and blues fill the heavens, from the edge of one horizon to the other, each brilliant hue accompanied by explosions of unequal splendor that capture my attention with thunderous roars. My mouth hangs wide in awe as its edges curl into a smile seen only on the faces of youth, or in those whose youth has been momentarily recaptured. All the night sky is alive with the light of liberty...all is beautiful.




And I wonder...I wonder if the fireworks that my eyes behold are the same that paint the night skies over Boston Harbor, the same that fill your heart with the hope and anticipation of things still to come, just as your memory has filled mine. I reach out to hold your hand, momentarily forgetting that your touch lies somewhere far over the horizon, past where my voice can call or hand can reach, past even where the lights of the beautiful display above can travel. But it is those beautiful lights in the sky that I believe bring us together in this moment. As I stand on these white sand beaches in Panama City and gaze in childlike wonder at the exploding fireworks above, I think only of you. I think only of holding your hand and staring at the reflection of fireworks in your eyes while the ones within my heart are alighted simply by your touch. On the soft beaches of Panama City I stand this July 4th, wishing more than anything that you were here, and wondering if somewhere far over the horizon your gaze is cast skyward as you wish I was standing beside you on this magical night, holding your hand as we smile and surrender to a tender kiss.


I miss you. 


I miss you...and I just want to see you again.